| Here I am at 4:00 in the morning. Been up since 1:00 a.m. and have been trying to tire myself out by eating, reading and cleaning. And yet here I am.
I've been working on the NOC (graveyard) shift at Sunrise for about 2 months now. It has honestly been a LONG 2 months. As of Sunday I am supposed to change to day shifts which I am so thankful for. I don't know how much longer I can handle waking up in the middle of the night on my nights off. And more importantly I really want to work with the residents and actually see people.
In all honesty these two months have taught me a lot about myself and how much I really need God's help for patience. I feel like I usually get along with most people, of course there are a few here and there that I just can't seem to stand no matter what they do. But God has been teaching me how important it is for me really read my bible and pray. I haven't been having my deep quiet times like I used to, and really need, but I have noticed how much I need to just get into the word daily. Just to have those little burst of strength from God and to have a lot of patience.
Brian and I are going to be participating in a Memory Walk for Alzheimer tomorrow or actually today at 9:00 a.m. so I hope to get a little more sleep until then... I guess we'll find out...
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| How does time fly by so fast...
Looking back at old posts I can't believe it's been 2 years since I last wrote a blog. So many things have changed and yet so many things haven't.
Married life has been great. I've noticed that we keep learning day by day how to love and treat each other. There are moments when I know I would have blown up and got frustrated in the past and yet we're able to bounce back and move on in a matter of minutes now. Its nice to see growth, not only in myself but with each other.
We never know what the future holds, changes come and we adapt to them....
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| Lord, who am I?? The world we live in tells us to look out for ourselves and that life is all just a game. That to be happy we have to in a way act selfish and do what we want to do. I know God is constantly trying to teach me that living a life in self pursuit is leading me astray. So many times I try and compare myself to other people. I seem to rely on the opinions on others rather than speaking up and forming my own ideas and decisions. I am so easily swayed by what others people are doing or saying that things that I know are wrong for me, start to look pleasurable. I think at times I have convictions that are more conservative than others and at times I start to question myself and wonder if I should just follow the crowd. But God has been trying to speak to me to stop looking at others for direction and conviction but to look to Him and his Word. I think the reasons I have such low self esteem in my own opinions is because I haven’t truly understood who I am in Christ. I’m still trying to figure out who God has made me and my prayer is that I’ll be able to see myself through Gods eyes, and not through other peoples. When the bible talks about a “woman of character” and a “woman that fears the Lord” that’s what I want. So many times in my life I can be so impatient, I hate waiting for anything and I always want it now. But I pray that God will give me patience and a heart that truly seeks after him. |
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| Do you know me??? 
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| The Bachelor  
Tessa won!!! Okay so I just started watching this show 3 weeks ago and I am addicted. Tessa has been my favorite and I am so happy she and Andy are together. I didnt even want to go bowling because I didnt want to miss any part of it. Now I want to try and get all of the old episodes and watch them. The crazy part is that I'm totally against pretty much everything this show is about. I mean...Naval officer Andy Baldwin dates 25 diffent women. He's kissing them and its so crazy! And it's so sad when he's telling both girls he loves her. Bevin was so heart broken. I have been crying during all the shows. It's so emotional..and yet I cant stop thinking about the show!  
here's the home page if you want to check it out.... http://abc.go.com/primetime/bachelor/index 
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